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1 Long month today

One month ago today I smoked my last cigarette. I have struggled with my addiction for many years, and over the last month I have struggled with my resolve to quit. The biggest thing I have realized over the last month is just how ingrained smoking is in my life. I have smoked for the last 25 years and that habit is ingrained in every waking moment of my day. Until you decide to quit you do not realize just how much everything you do is centered around smoking. The addiction to the nicotine is not what is the hard part about quitting, it is the process of retraining your brain to do things without involving  a cigarette.  I have been doing really good at suppressing the habit for the last week, and then yesterday I pinched a nerve in my back and was experiencing some serious pain from my lower back down my left leg. It hurt to sit, stand, walk or even lay down. All day as I was trying to find the least painful position my brain was looking for the cigarettes. I finally was able to ease the pain by lying on a heating pad on the bed. Once the pain eased so did the urge to smoke. As I thought about that I realized that before now when I was in pain I would usually smoke more to help me relax and to help ease the pain. I am feeling much better today and the urges are back to their normal level. Every day I feel a lot better about my chances of success with quitting this time and as each day passes that success does come easier.

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2011 – the year ahead

Now that we are at the end of 2010 and preparing to start 2011 I have been thinking about what I wanted to get accomplished in 2010 and over all I had a good year. The two brightest moments of the year were the births of my Grand daughter Milley in January and my Grandson LJ in May. Adding those two with my first Grandson David now gives me 3 new hunting and fishing partners in the future and I am looking forward to that.

Now I am looking ahead to 2011. I am hoping to make 2011  an even better year than 2010. I have a number of goals I want to accomplish this year. there are a few things I have on the list I have never tried before so any help would be greatly appreciated.

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