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1 Long month today

One month ago today I smoked my last cigarette. I have struggled with my addiction for many years, and over the last month I have struggled with my resolve to quit. The biggest thing I have realized over the last month is just how ingrained smoking is in my life. I have smoked for the last 25 years and that habit is ingrained in every waking moment of my day. Until you decide to quit you do not realize just how much everything you do is centered around smoking. The addiction to the nicotine is not what is the hard part about quitting, it is the process of retraining your brain to do things without involving  a cigarette.  I have been doing really good at suppressing the habit for the last week, and then yesterday I pinched a nerve in my back and was experiencing some serious pain from my lower back down my left leg. It hurt to sit, stand, walk or even lay down. All day as I was trying to find the least painful position my brain was looking for the cigarettes. I finally was able to ease the pain by lying on a heating pad on the bed. Once the pain eased so did the urge to smoke. As I thought about that I realized that before now when I was in pain I would usually smoke more to help me relax and to help ease the pain. I am feeling much better today and the urges are back to their normal level. Every day I feel a lot better about my chances of success with quitting this time and as each day passes that success does come easier.